We're in the preliminary stages of planning our wedding and I'm struggling to find any motivation to do it. I just want the marriage with my lovely other half. I have no interest in planning a wedding.
I hate being centre of attention, I don't ''do" dressing up and I can't bear the thought of putting myself into debt (after spending most of my life trying to get out of it) so my friends and family can have a meal and a pissup.
My fiancé has a huge family and friendship group too, I don't. There are 80 people on the guestlist for the ceremony already and I'd only be able to pick 20 of them out of a line up. Eloping isn't an option as the close friends and family I do have, I want to be there.
I don't even know what advice I need, I just wanted to vent!
Everyone looks horrified when you say you're hugely disliking wedding planning, as if it somehow has relevance to the health of your relationship. My sister-in-law to be offered to help with planning and for us to go to a wedding fair. Which is lovely of her, but I don't want to wander round pretending my £3k budget will run to anything these companies are offering.
Honestly feeling like cancelling the whole thing at the moment.