Some of you may remember my post a month or so back about the texts/emails i found on H's phone with a girl at work? Really belueved him when hecsaid he was sorry and it was just banter etc. Well he was out last night and i got a gut feeling something wasnt right when he rolled in at 11.45pm on a Tuesday and lo and behold more texts. Only worse this time. Him telling her she "looked beautiful tonight" and how he would need "more" than her offer of coffee to get him through today.
I am gutted but not surprised. I have told him its over as far as i am concerned. He swears there is no affair but the intention is definitely there. If we were happy together he wouldn't have done it and to make it all worse i have to look at this skinny blonde *** every day at work knowing she wrecked our family. He has been crying saying he only wants me but i dont trust him anymore and dont think i ever will.
We haven't been getting on for years. He would rather be at the gym than spend time at home. We have "tried again" at least 5 times before this girl came on the scene. She is just whats bought it all to a head.
So i have a 3 year old, i am pregnant (17 weeks) and have a mortgage i wont be able to pay on my own. What the hell happens next??