Hi there,
I guess I am just feeling a bit down about the whole wedding planning and build up.
Nothing is turning out quite how I imagined or envisioned it to be.
I haven't and won't be having a hen do as my bridesmaids told me that they couldn't be bothered as it would be too much hassle and I feel somewhat jealous of the fact that other people I know have had great hen parties but I won't be having one.
I did try to organise one myself but it didn't work out - I couldn't get it to work financially for people and no one was interested in coming leading me to have an anxiety attack.
The wedding is in December this year and the RSVP deadline has passed, out of over 100 people only 40 have said that they will be coming. I've chased up the ones I haven't heard from this weekend and they are all a resounding no, even though they are close friends who I couldn't imagine getting married without and who I always make the effort for - travelling to see them as much I can.
I hardly have any friends as it is and when hardly anyone of them are coming it just makes me feel worse and that people do not really like me, want to be around me or make the effort.t