I'm a bit of a mess today...

So sorry that you are going through this. My 1st preg ended in mc at 7 weeks, I was a mess, but sob and scream uncontrollable like a banshee. I couldn't concentrate on anything and was verging on or had depression of some sort due to the mc.

You need to do something for yourself, I had reflexology sessions which really helped me, I could feel the black cloud lifting and I started to feel human again. It may not be your thing but it helped me. My mum took up yoga when she lost her Dad and that helped her because of the breathing techniques. You need quality 'me time' to help find peace - if that makes sense?

Take care.

Hickory:

C, you need to get out of there and go home. You need to be somewhere you can feel safe and let your feelings out, not trying to bottle them up and keep a calm face through a panic attack.

Please just go home, stuff the appraisal. You'll look back on your life one day and be proud that you got through this terrible time you're having - you'll be thinking that you were glad you took care of yourself and survived it as a family - you will not be thinking 'i did a good job getting a 'good' for my appraisal'. It's just so not worth it Crantock

WHS. You need to go home hun. Life is too short to suffer at work like this. Put yourself first. If you're not happy then your work will suffer anyway even if it's only because you can't concentrate enough.

you  poor thing, panic attacks are so horrid.  2nd zeb's suggestion of a paper bag - or is there some room you can go into for 5 minutes?  I find if I lie on my side, slightly curled up in almost foetal position, it calms them down.  

xxx

No advice but you need to be kind to yourself.  It;s ok to feel sad.

1.  What Evelina said about getting the sicknote changed.

2. Sod the appraisal, he's already given you the lowest rating he could get away with, he can't drop it further in a future appraisal because it'd be obvious from your record what he was doing.

3. Your boss is an idiot, who cares what he thinks?

4. Is this the friend I think? Has there been more to it than that one thing? If so then you can't have lost her over that surely? Incredibly petty if you have and therefore no loss imo, but I know that doen't make it feel better.

You know where I am, I have flickr open in another window if you want to pm me, and you have my numbers.

You have every right to feel crap.

  I'm so sorry you are  feeling like this.  I've not been in your situation, however I do know how the heady mix of hormones affects me and it is no wonder you are feeling such a mess after what you have been through.  Be kind to yourself and try to avoid/limit the situations that might overwhelm you.  It might be worth going back to the GP and see about a little more time off.  x

Crantock - go home.

your health and state of mind is more important at the moment.

Sorry, no other words of wisdom, but get yourself home and do something for - be it curl up on the sofa/have a bath/have a sleep/eat/ whatever, but being at work today is clearly not where you should be.

Not sure, but are you in the South East? If so, perhaps we can organise a SE meet up soon (I havent been to one yet,  too shy...and am only really free on a friday, but I would like to meet some new people, perhaps new friends.........)

take care

x

I'm at home now, thank you all, you were right, I do need to be at home.  I need to sleep and eat comfort food (Rich has cauliflower cheese and fresh bread for my lunch) and I need to just look after myself today.

I figured what triggered it, my period's very heavy and (TMI) the sight of the blood and clots just, I guess on some level, brought it all back and caused a panic attack.  I'd not connected the two things until just now. 

Thank you all for listening and being there when I needed you, as always xx

Really glad you're home.

It was bound to bring it all back to you. I remember my AF's after my m/c and it's tough going.  The only thing I can say is that it does get better.  You've got to allow yourself the grieving time - and no one can put a time limit on that. 

Take care of yourself xxxx

I'm glad you're at home with comfort food.

Sending you much love.

Take care of yourself today, glad you're at home now

I am so so so so glad you are at home.

Please take care of yourself today and if you aren't up to it tomorrow, don't go in.

Sod work. So what if you got an "average" appraisal - that is so unimportant compared with getting yourself through this rough patch. (huge understatement I know x)

We are all here if you need us

I'm glad you're home and being looked after.  As others have said, stuff everything else for now, you can always fix the world when you've fixed yourself - but there's no shortcuts to that.

Take care of yourself.

Have just read this.  I'm so glad you went home, stuff your boss, it's just not worth playing with your health . 

xx

Glad you went home. Have a self pamper day and take care of you