what to do when you stop?

RJ, sending you the biggest

As the others have said, the bad days are going to come but please remember they are also going to GO. You've suffered a sad and difficult loss but you won't always feel like you have done today.  With the counsellor, just see how you go, no need to put yourself under pressure by committing to a number of sessions. Same with treatment, no pressure but if you're thinking more and more about postponing, you may be better to make the decision and focus on a break with your H. Thinking of you, Px

RJ, First of all I am sending you lots of love and hugs.  I could have written your post down to the last letter.  I am going through the same thing.  Unconsciously taking on more and more at work. Going swimming with family members 3 times a week, we have started counselling and I have to say that it is dragging things up that I would rather not think about.  We have friends and family coming round most weekends, so we don't actually have any time on our own together at weekends. 

Last weekend would have been the weekend when the baby that we lost to an ectopic pregnancy would have been due and that knocked me for six as well.  I have days when I feel fine and almost on top of the world and really happy, then something happens to knock me back down.  I don't want our ttc journey to go on much longer and often ask myself why us, what have we done wrong to deserve this - of course the answer is nothing - its just one of those cruel tricks of nature.

I miss 'seeing' you and the other regular DTC ladies on here, I feel as though we are all so unhappy that we have decided not to post anymore as we don't really have anything to post about.