Struggling, just need to get it out (sens)

oh Madge, it all sounds totally normal after what happened with Joe.

talk about it as much as you like, if talking about it helps. If it doesn't, then talk about other things and we'll all still be right here for you.

Thinking about you.

I don't know your history, but know how wonderfully supportive you are to everyone here.  Sending you lot of love and thinking of you, your family and sausage xx

Edie:

Madonna, you've said at the end we don't have a choice - but we have...we didn't have to read this, most of us know your history and want to be there for you. We're all here for you. What you're carrying around with you, is a burden and as they say its best to share if you can.

I think you're so strong, and if we can be here for you to listen or help in anyway then I for one am honored. If we can get you through the next four months then we will!

x

 

Exactly WES

Thank you all x

The drama queen is rested for a while now, I promise I'm not putting up a front when I am cheerful, as I said I don't even know what's happening till it hits. It's good to let this out and know I have lots of people rooting for me/inventing time machines as we speak.

Another day almost done...!

as you well know, pregnancy after loss is unbelievably hard.

I shared a lot of your feelings when I was pregnant with Ella. If I could have taken a pill and slept for the whole thing I'd gladly have taken it. Pregnancy after loss is hard, cruel and in my experience pretty joyless at times. I didn't realise it was possible to be so constantly stressed, fraught and utterly on the edge for such a sustained period of time until I was going through it.

I'm sorry I can't say anything to make it better. Please keep talking if it helps

Thinking of you

H x

Oh darling Madonna I am so sorry you have to carry this burden. The quote from Macca sums it up so well. It is possibly no comfort but I felt I will share this. Every day I think of you and send you my love, you have been like the big sister I have always wanted, close in age and full of wonderful advice, so supportive and always there. I do understand the creeping up on you thing, you suddenly realise how tense you were (although mine is from a different place). All I can say is I love and I will listen always.

Pittabre that's so lovely. Thank you. To you and everyone x

(But Oi, why am I the big sister? I'm only 5ft 0, so are you saying I'm old or something?! lmao!)

Madonna,  a big for you. I wish I could offer more. I wish I could say I understand what you are going through your journeys have been so sad I pray for you that this journey is a good one.  What I have been through does not compare to you at all- but yet you have been so supportive of me.

I know what you mean about not enjoying pregnancy. Not being able to enjoy it through totally worry. Please don't take this the wrong way and I really am not being insensitive (well I hope I am not) but if your baby is born prematurely for any reason I cannot highly praise Queen's enough  for their NICU ward. It is a horrible place to have to be in but they provided wonderful exceptional care for A. I hope you don't end up there but are in post natal with your wonderful bundle.

Each day is another hurdle. Before you know it you'll be on the home straight!

You are a lovely person who has given so much support on these boards, I hope that we can all give something back when you need it, always here x

I am not surprised you are struggling given your history.  I often wonder where you get your strength from when I read your posts given everything you have been through.  I cannot begin to imagine what you are going through but hope that BT gives you the comfort and support you need to help you through the next weeks/months.

I cannot begin to imagine how you must be feeling or how hard this is for you but wanted to send you a huge .  xxx

I don't know what to say, but just wanted to let you know that I am thinking about you

God Madonna, I had no idea you were feeling like this, you do well to always seem so together!  A coping mechanism that mums have I suppose.  We're on 2nd tri boards together and through the "insomnia" posts etc I just thought it was usual pregnancy sleeplessness, apologies for being insensitive.  I'm not completely familiar with your history but have got the jist of it I think, and I'd imagine that how you are feeling is completely natural, please please tell us when you feel like this, and if there's anything we can do then just say.  You give so much to everyone on these boards that if we can give you something back then please ask

Big hugs xxx

Don't feel bad CW, it was/is 'just' insomnia I think, I will share if I need to, promise x