So I have some news about Theo (very sens and quite long)

Pip, I'm so pleased the hospital have admitted they were responible for everything that happened to you and Theo.
I can see why its been hard for you to write this too.

Its not the same thing, and I've not read all the replies, so apologies if this has been mentioned before, but them admitting to what happened and how you're feeling reminds me of something my friend has been/is going through.
Her son was killed in a car crash 13 months ago. Long story short, the inquest into his death, and the accident dragged on for 10 months and was finally resolved in September, and a ruling of accidental death given (as opposed to the son being held liable). For all that time, J (my friend, the boy's mum) had been fighting to prove her son's innocence, and for everything to come to an end, but when the time finally came, she was just left with a feeling of 'what do I fight for now?'. It had taken up so much of her life, and while everyone else was ableto put closure on the whole thing, she was left in limbo. What was she meant to do now?
I think it made her a bit sad that people might start to forget iyswim?

I have no idea if thats in any way similar to how you feel pip, but it does show that what you're feeling is totally normal, and completely justified.

You absolutely blow me away with your strength and courage. I can't even begin to put into words everything you, your H and Theo have been through, but I know you should feel so proud of yorselves for the way you've come out the other side.
The last sentence of your post has me in floods of tears.

I can't wait to see you with your little girl in your arms. You deserve it so so much.

x

Mazzy that is exactly it. I know it's not been a long part of my life but it has felt like it, and I feel scared that we have to carry this with us for the rest of it.

PIp

I'm glad the hospital has admitted full liability, but I am so sorry that you and your family have ever had to go through this.  Don't be scared of letting all of your emotions out; I am sure there is plenty of crying yet to do

Theo will be so proud of his mummy and daddy

Oh Pip, that's a stunning result, you should be so proud of achieving that for Theo. I hope the admission will smooth the next stages of the process for you.

But I'm so sorry you had to fight for this result though, that your fight was necessary in the first place.

I hope the time between now and Pippetta's arrival past fast for you.

You'll never forget, of course you won't. Why should you?
But I do think, and hope, that in time you'll come to look at things slightly differently - that you'll realise what we all know already. You have/did/are doing EVERYTHING possible for your gorgeous little boy, and to keep his memory alive and intact. People can talk about him and know what a special person he is. Just because he's not here to show us in person, certainly doesn't mean he's not having an impact. You need to talk about him in happy terms, and I so hope that you can do that, however long that takes.

Nobody expects anything of you - you shouldn't either. And nobody can deny the endless amount of love you have for Theo. 
I don't doubt for a second that Pipetta will know all about her amazing big brother, and just how special and awe inspiring he is. Just make sure she learns that about her parents too.

I don't think you realise just how amazing you are sweetheart.

Pip, I cant even start to imagine how you must be feeling.

You must be relieved in a way for their admission, but you shouldnt have been made to fight till now for them to then admit it. It just isnt fair on top of what has happened.

you are an amazing lady, your dignity, courage and strength through all of this has been an inspiration.

Glad they have finally admitted to their mistakes, have an inadequate hug x

Gosh Pip, what an awful lot to take in. I can imagine you must be feeling shell-shocked by the whole ordeal. I'm another one in awe of your bravery and how you have fought for justice for your beautiful son. Do you know what the next step of the process is? x

Pip, I cried reading your post. You must feel so many conflicting feelings right now.

You and your H should be so proud for fighting for your boy when you must have felt like curling up and dying. 

Thankyou on behalf of families everywhere, because of people like you those responsible will have to face their responsibilities and put measures in place to stop anything  like this happening again.

You are both in my thoughts at this very difficult time x

Another inadequate

I can't think of anything to add to what everyone else has said so I'll just echo how strong and inspirational you are (even though it may not seem it from the inside). I'm sure Theo is very proud of his mum.

Take care of you, Mr Pip and Pipetta, I hope the future is kind to you

**Pip**, I have no words which are as eloquent as those you have had from other posters.  You have done so so well to get this result for your darling boy and I just know that he will be so proud of you.  I know you don't feel strong, but in the ways that count you really are.  It's been a privilege to get to know you a bit on the trimester threads and you have coped with this new pregnancy so well despite the difficult memories it must bring up for you.  I look forward to reading your birth announcement for Pipetta and sharing the early days of our baby's lives with each other

Another who can only echo WEES. So glad that they have admitted liability, and so so sorry that you and your family have had to go through all this.

Theo won't be ever be forgotten - not only by you, your family and your friends but by many 'strangers' here too.

Pip, I am so glad for you that they have admitted liability and really cant add to what others have already put so beautifully. I just wanted to say that Im sure that Theo is so proud to have such wonderful parents who have fought so hard for him and that I find your strength and courage amazing.

x

for you Pip.

Much love x