Evening all
I found a pea sized lump in my left breast on Sunday. I've seen the doctor who confirmed it is 1cm in diameter and have an appointment at the Breast Clinic on Monday.
I have been in absolute pieces since then. I can't stop crying. I am 30 years old and my Great Grandmother, Grandmother, Great Aunt and my mother have all had breast cancer, the youngest being my mum at 47 years old. All survived.
I just keep thinking the worst, I know I shouldn't and I should be trying to stay positive, but I can honestly say I have never been so scared in my whole life. I have a 2 year old son and every time I think of my little boy and my husband I break down.
I'm not asking to be told it's going to be ok, but I just wondered if anyone else has ever experienced similar at my sort of age and I'd be very grateful if you'd share your story with me.
Thank you
*Update - Hi everyon, thank you so much for your messages. Well I went to the breast clinic last Monday 11th and saw a specialist. She did a physical examination and at first couldn't find anything, so after I pointed it out to her she felt it and said she thought it was a "fatty lump" but would ultrasound it as precaution. Upon ultrasound a perfectly round image appeared on the screen, to which the specialist said "oh, it's a little cyst". She said as long as I didnt' mind, she would do a needle aspiration and try and drain it - I didn't mind at all, I just wanted it gone. After a lot of prodding and wiggling she managed to drain it and low and behold it vanished from the screen, I was over the moon. However that was short lived, the contents was a dark murky colour and she added the contents to a solution in a tube to check for blood, which there was. She then said that because there was blood, it needed to be sent to the lab for testing, but again said she wasn't overly concerned.
On my way out I was given an appointment of the 4th Feb for my results, I was in a bit of a daze really and didn't speak all the way home. It wasn't until I told my boss, who I'm very close to, that I realised the 4th was forever away, and she said I should push to be seen sooner. I rang the clinic and spoke to a lovely lady who said as soon as my results where in she would ring me. I can honestly say I've never cried so much in all my life as I have the past 10 days, every time I look at my 2year old son, the thoughts that go through my mind are awful, I just feel drained. Today the clinic rang and the results have come back, but the lady I spoke to said that the specialist wants to scan me again and do some further probing, I'm booked in for next Wednesday morning. Once again I'm left in bits, the lady couldn't really elaborate on the phone, I asked if the results were inconclusive and she said that the specialist wanted to do a bit more investigating. I just can't believe this is happening to me, but then on the other hand why not me, what makes me so special that it shouldn't happen to me, nothing I guess. Feeling very tired and very teary, can't stop prodding and poking my boobs, checking for anything that might feel abnormal, made the fatal mistake of googling on more than one occasion and I just feel like my head is going to explode.
Thank you for taking the time to read.
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