O/T..a thank you from me x

Just wanted to say thanks to you all for your support (re: previous thread) things still arent good but  at least one of my friends has been in touch and popped over to see me today. The other it seems has fallen out with me, and  I dont know if the bride has or not. Tommorow isnt going to be easy, but seeing my sister in the afternoon, she is bringing my little niece over so that will be nice as she always manages to make me smile. Ive bought her a 'Pepper Pig' dressing up outfit so that hopefully we look really sweet on her.  I need to try and get over this chest infection and do my best to get back to work Tuesday.  I know the longer I leave it the harder it will be, but at the moment it feels like a mountain.

I hope you all have a lovely xmas & very much hope 2010 will be a better year x

Hi MrsW2B Glad one of you friends has decided to come round, and hopfully the others won't be far behind. I hope everything goes ok for you tomorrow and you have a lovely Christmas! Remember where we are if you need a chat.

I hope 2010 is a much better year for you!!

Leanne xx

Thanks Leanne, you have been a real help.  I suppose really I need to change my name on here dont I....need to think of something.

Hope you have a great day, Laura x

Laura, this is the time your friends will start callin round, sometimes it takes someone to "break the ice" for others as the pobaby don't know what to say to you in this kind of situation.

I really hope things start looking up for your in 2010, just don't forget to do things for you

Thank you guys. Im sorry to say xmas day didn't end up as I wanted it too. It ended up with me in hospital. Dont want to go into it, but combination of things including one of my friends laying into me about the wedding I couldnt make, and It just tipped the scales, found it all too hard. Im at home now, been in bed since trying to get myself okay again. My family are in touch alot and coming over 2m. Still meant to be at work Tuesday, not sure how, but got to go in, as already lost so much pay. I really thought I could get through it, but got myself in a state and dont want think.  I guess im worse than I thought I was, but just hope there is an end in sight.

oh no!! thats not good at all......... can you please seek some counselling? It will help loads.... I'm glad your family are coming over today to see you.....

sending you a huge hug...... please dont battle this alone anymore, screw your mouthy mate....screw anything and anyone that upsets you. ...   Wish I could help ya. xx

Oh No Laura, Hope your ok. xx Sending huge Hugs!

As Teehee said please don't do this alone, as you really need support, can you maybe go stay with your family for a while and get them to help you out??

I would ignore your so called mate, if she really was any sort of friend she would appreciate that your needing help and support and that things are tough for you, if not then she's not worth the hassle!!

Hope todays better for you with your family coming around, but please please get some help!

Lxx

Thanks alot girls. I have just got back from the doctors and am trying new tablets, also seeing the counsellor again tommorow, so hope things will start looking up. Pretty worried about my job and the lost pay from taking time off, but am trying to get my mind onto getting better.  I was meant to go in today, but another sleepless night and following what happened it was just too soon.

I guess its times like these when you realise who your friends are.

Thank you all for the support, really mean that x

Sorry, am coming to this thread quite late but just wanted to say I hope your new tablets help you. Make sure you get the appointment with the counsellor and you know where we are when you need us.

Thinking of you xx

Thanks. Im going to see how I am for the rest of the week. The sleepless nights aren't helping and I keep worrying so much about work, but know I wont get better If I keep stressing. Its just so hard not to. My doctor was really good about it all. I seem to be worse at night. Even though Mum & sister were over until late, I kept worrying about work and just couldnt think of anything else. I feel like ive hit rock bottom these past weeks, and I just hope so much that it will get better, because every day I try and convince myself of that, and then it doesnt. So many people suffer with depression, I wish it didn't have the stigma it has in the workplace, because I know I cant say what happened for fear of what effect it will have.

Last time I suffered with it, hitched got me through, helped me plan my wedding & everything, and here I am again, its like de-ja-vu! xx

Really sorry to hear you are going through such a rough patch.

It certainly doesn't solve anything long term but maybe ask your GP for sleeping tablets. I know they helped me when I couldn't sleep and was thinking very dark horrible thoughts because just getting a bit of rest did make the next day easier to deal with instead of being shattered, emotional and anxious all at the same time. If the GP isn't too keen on giving you any, a lot aren't because they are highly addicitive, then maybe ask in the chemist for some herbal remedies.

I'm glad you are having counselling and hopefully that will help you along with your family support and we are always here on Hitched to listen.

Luckily I work in a place where stigma with depression doesn't exist, it simply isn't tolerated, but you should be able to tell your work what is happening without the fear of any negative effects so I'm really sorry to hear your work wouldn't be helpful.

You will get out of that rock bottom place in time so just take one day at a time. xx

sorry christmas wasnt what you were hoping for, unfortunately this is the time you will work out who your real friends are. but those who stick around will be the truest friends you ever have (speaking from A LOT of experience here).

keep going, you will get there in the end. i know that's easier said then done but im battling it again aswell so i completely sypmathise with how you're feeling.

we're all here for you!!

Really glad you got new tablets and getting help. Just remember we're here if you need us!!

LxXx

hiya! was it today you were going in to work? Hope it went ok if it was.

Workwise, the best thing I would say (from personal experience) is to draw a line under what has happened and go in with a fresh outlook, I know its easier said than done but it will make it easier if you are on the positive side, rather than the negative side (even if its only on the outside) this will show people at work that yuo are back and ready to work, so no one can cause any poop for you. The first day is going to be the hardest, but remember to smile as it will make you more approachable for those that dont know what to say/do around you.

Good Luck with everything and we are all here for you

max xxx