I'm so fed up (TTC related)

I know I'm being a drama queen but I'm so fed up, we haven't even been trying that long.

I have pcos and since having my coil removed in April I've had 2 cycles, the second one is ongoing and I'm now on day 95 or something horrible like that. I had all the signs that I ovulated about 11 days ago and my temps were higher than ever, but over the last 3 days its slowly been coming down and today got a massive drop. I'm gutted as I really thought we may have a chance, stupid I know. I was crying my eyes out this morning after taking my temp, how pathetic is that? AF hasn't arrived yet, what with the pcos I dont even know if it will??

At least if I had normal cycles and each month we were unsuccessful I could move on to the next knowing it would be 30ish days and that I would ov, but I don't so I wont know whats going on.

I've got metformin for the pcos but it makes me feel so ill, I know I need to persevere with it but its so hard, when I dont feel its actually doing anything. I need to loose A LOT of weight, and surely my motivation should be there as I want a baby so much, but its not and I can't stop eating crap, its so frustrating, I feel crap and horrible and ready to burst into tears any minute :-(

Why can't I just be normal?

Sorry, just ignore me xx

Have a

I understand the weightloss and comfort eating thing. If you want a diet buddy you give me a shout x

Have another one from me I know we've not spoken on here much lately but if you ever want to bend my ear you can get me on fb x

I feel your pain, I really do.

I had cycles like yours and was on Metformin to help cycles. I felt so rough all the time, permanently sick. So much so that I couldn't even go into Tescos to buy food as that made me feel worse. Mr S had to take over cooking our meals, something he still mostly does, and he used to have to encourage me to eat, as I'd rather not bother.

There is a coated form of metformin you can get which doesn't make you feel so bad. Take it midway through your meal and it seems to be better as well.

We thought my cycles had calmed down since having the twins as I'd had 2 or 3 relatively normal cycles, but this last one was 60+ days. Mr S suggested going back on metformin. We looked at each other and said "maybe not" as now I have the boys to cook for, I just couldn't do it if I was feeling that sick.

I know the need to eat crap... somehow it does make you feel better. Try if you can to eat a low  GI or GL diet. Your blood sugar levels will be on an even keel and you won't feel so bad. You'll even lose weight. I know my consultant said that losing a pound for a PCOS patient is like a normal woman losing 5 lbs. It's really difficult.

Sending you hugs, it's so difficult.

Have a look at the verity boards if you haven't already, there will be lots of other ladies in your situation there to help encourage you along the way.

x

I know that I haven't been on here as much lately but do you think it's time I invited Mother Nature to another appraisal?

awh Sunny Day, have a it must be so frustrating for you.  I can relate to the weight issue, the more I think about the more I eat crap.  Can you discuss everything again with your GP?

thanks guys, if af does show up (I've just had some spotting) I'm determined to crack on with the met no matter how it makes me feel, at least then I can tell the doc I am taking it properly.

I know I need to relax about all this but its so hard, I want it so much. I suppose I just need to concentrate on loosing weight and hopefully that would help with the ttc.

I have had bloods at the doc which were all fine, dont indicate pcos but the scan and lack of af do, h is having a sa in the next month or so and hopefully the doc will ref us, she said she will. I know I need clomid but they wont give it to me while my bmi is so high so Ive just got to get on and do it. H said this morning hes going to help me, we'll do it together, he'll even come and  meet me to walk me home from work so thats good excercise.

Thanks for being kind, just having a bad dayxxxxxxx

Sunny Day:

we haven't even been trying that long.

i don't think that argument matters, or is valid when you have PCOS.

2 cycles to you has been about six months, so no wonder you're frustrated, as would someone who'd had 6 cycles in that time and not got upduffed. its not like its your first month and you're having a meltdown (as i have seen on BT in the last three years or so of being here)

when will you next be seen in relation to the PCOS? it doesn't sound like the drugs are helping much, or does it take a while?

Just wanted to send suport- you sound really fed up and it must be so frustrating. I have no experience of PCOS but the advice you have been given sounds good. I can sympathise with the long cycles thing though- we have been officially 'trying' for 10 months but only on to cycle 6. It is hard enough when you get one chance a month.

Big hugs

Don't ever apologise for having a rant.  Just because others may have it worse does not mean you're not entitled to be upset about your situation.  I'd be climbing the walls if I'd only had 2 cycles in that time, it must be so frustrating when you want to get pregnant so much.  I hope the doctors can give you some answers and that it happens for you soon

Just wanted to give you a hug from a fellow ttcer, it can be so frustrating sometimes

Had seen FF took away your Ov date . Not sure if you could get it somewhere, but I found counselling really helped my problems re loosing weight. We spend a good 6-8 weeks just discussing my relationship with food, comfort eating etc. Before the counselling I couldn't stick to eating properly for longer than a couple of weeks,post counselling I have lost 5 stone in the last year, so it has really worked for me.

If you can't get counselling, then maybe just researching basic CBT techniques may help?

Fell free to get support from the DTC thread , and I am about most evenings on msn xx

kierenthecommunity:

Sunny Day:

we haven't even been trying that long.

i don't think that argument matters, or is valid when you have PCOS.

2 cycles to you has been about six months, so no wonder you're frustrated, as would someone who'd had 6 cycles in that time and not got upduffed. its not like its your first month and you're having a meltdown (as i have seen on BT in the last three years or so of being here)

when will you next be seen in relation to the PCOS? it doesn't sound like the drugs are helping much, or does it take a while?

We are both at the docs on 20th Oct for my h to register and go for a sa, and for me to talk about my most recent bloods, but when I rang up for the results the receptionist said they all say 'normal'.

Hopefully H will get the sa done before Christmas and then the referal can be sent, it will be good just to be in the system.

Thanks for your support, its great and you're all fab, I just need a hug from my h but he went to work at 5.30 this morning and now I'm at work.

sweetersong:

Had seen FF took away your Ov date . Not sure if you could get it somewhere, but I found counselling really helped my problems re loosing weight. We spend a good 6-8 weeks just discussing my relationship with food, comfort eating etc. Before the counselling I couldn't stick to eating properly for longer than a couple of weeks,post counselling I have lost 5 stone in the last year, so it has really worked for me.

If you can't get counselling, then maybe just researching basic CBT techniques may help?

Fell free to get support from the DTC thread , and I am about most evenings on msn xx

I've no idea about councelling, wouldn't know where to start, I know I can do it if I put my mind to it, H will help me. He saw the state I was in this morning and realises how big this is for me.

This sounds so silly, but I've been avoiding DTC as I kind of don't want to admit it, know what I mean??

Hi Sunny Day xxx

Sorry to hear you are feeling so down.

I am in a simiilar position to you. I came off the pill in September 08, and AF has only visitied a handful of times since then. Am in the process of having the scans and GP's apts (have one today actually!!) to get to the bottom of it all but at my last scan I was told my ovaries were polycystic.

We are trying for a baby too, and I really understand your frustration of not knowing when AF is gonna show, when you are ovulating etc and not being in a regular pattern. I haven't been put on any drugs yet, thats probably a discussion I will have later on today, however I am reluctant to take anything at the mo. Everyone says how rough they make you feel so I was gonna ask GP to refer me for acupuncture and to see a dietician. My GI Diet book fell on the door step this morning so will be starting that as its really well linked to helping with PCOS. Try that if you can

I hope things improve for you hun, keep trying xxxxxx